Life for me has been crazy. Coming back from Cape Town it took probably a month for me to readjust to being here in the states and to get caught back up on work. It wasn't until about thanksgiving where I have finally been able to feel a little bit of the pressure begin to ease off. I also finally feel like my head is working again, it was so weird to be living in this fog of not really being here, but knowing I am here. (I am hoping my world traveling friends can understand and will back me up)
I guess I owe you all an update especially those of you that haven't seen me in a while. Let me catch you up. Last January on new years day I decided that it was time to change my life around. I was going to try to lose 80 -100 lbs in the 2010 year. What a crazy journey I was beginning.
So here we are 11 months later... and well lets just say I haven't lost my 80 or 100 lbs. But this is ok. There have been many roadblocks and bumps along the way. So first to celebrate. I have since last January lost 49 lbs! What a great accomplishment and I have lost a total of 33+" This has revealed a beginning of a new me. Well I guess I would say began to reveal the real me.
I have also just recently hit my lowest mile time. 11min 59 sec. I also am running for 3.2 miles at a time, well mostly I wog it, which is my variation of walking and Jogging, however just today I ran it. It was great! I am beginning to enjoy my work out, ok well certainly not love it, but I do see how it is great for me.
All this to say is these great wins have produces some interesting challenges, such as learning to accept myself, learning to embrace the new me.
I also have to bring up the idea that many of you have comment on the original title for this blog which was a fat girls journey...Yes I get it.. but for me I haven't changed it because that is what I really believe/d I was. I was the fat girl I owned it as my identity, and am still trying to shed that identity. But for those of you who spoke words of life into me regarding this I simply say THANK YOU! Each of those words while probably poorly received by me was heard, and I believe they will begin to take root and really blossom.
Also this year has just brought a great focus of what my priorities are. I have spent so many year especially the last two years focused on my academics in an effort to distract from my unhappiness but this semester God has realigned me to say lets focus on your spiritual life and your physical health, and it has come at a cost, I know I will probably end up with B's this semester, but it has been worth it.
This has been probably the biggest life change semester ever. Someone I know and value said to me.."Sarah you can't be a life change person if you aren't willing to go through life change yourself."
Oh I am sooo proud of you!!
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