Fear

This is the second time at least that I have come back to the topic of Fear. I am constantly surprised at how dominant a role fear plays in our lives.

Do you see it in yours? I know for the longest time, I hesitated to even begin to loose weight because I knew that I would fail and I was just so scared of thinking about beginning because I was so focused on how I would fail, and it would be over. The fear of how poorly I would do would keep me from even starting the journey.

Fear is something we all face. Who knows why, or where it comes from. Fear can be a good thing though, we need and rely on fear to sometimes keep us safe. But it can become something that controls us instead of just keeping us safe.

So here we are on this journey, I am two months in. Does it mean I am not fearful. No of course there are days when I am scared and certain that I will not do well. Or there are days when I know that I am not doing well. And sure I get scared wondering if it is worth it, maybe I should just throw the towel in but, I don't. This time around I can't because it is different, I have people I am staying accountable to, and the desire to change is more than the fear of failing.

So I step over the fear. I look it in the face acknowledge it, and keep going. Sure sometimes the fear wins, but even if I loose a battle I am pretty sure I can win the war.