Summer of Reflection

Guess what I can't believe that the summer is over! Ok well there is at least one more week. I find it so amazing that we set these great plans and say how wonderful something will be when this or that finally happens.

For me I was so sure that this summer would lead to great milestones in my weight loss, and overall health. I was sure of it, however it didn't. I am not mad over that, I am not disappointed, I am not angry, it just didn't happen the way I had hoped.

But, it also doesn't mean that it was a horrible summer, I didn't gain and I didn't really loose anything I will find out for sure this thursday, so the numbers will be in and a verdict passed. But it causes me to think it is so important to just do it today. Kind of like nike there can not be a sense of waiting for the perfect time to do something because once that perfect time arrives there will always be something that makes it not the ideal not the perfect time.

So instead of waiting it is time I just make the decision for each day for each moment, and stop dreaming about and reaching for the next perfect time.

Saturday Nights

Well I have found a great way to spend Saturday nights. This past Saturday night I found myself sitting in urgent care only to be sent over to Horton Hospital. This was the first time I found myself a little scared and wondering what might be wrong. I had this horrible pain in my lower abdomen. They were convinced they had ruled out appendicitis but they weren't sure what it was, their thought was a ruptured ovarian cysts. Which after 6 hours of fun, entertainment, and joy was what they told me it was however they weren't able to see it on the cat scan.

I will be following up this week my my own doctor, and who knows who else. My favorite things from the whole evening alright one of them was when my doctor came in said "your cat scan was clear, but we found a cysts on your hear." then he walked out not to return for another 20 minutes. Yeah it was fun.

So altogether it was a fun evening. It has allowed and forced me to take some time to rest and not do anything because of course I feel fine as long as I am not moving. :)

Lots of fun.... :)

Quick Stay in Horton

Well I have found a great way to spend saturday nights. This past saturday night I found myself sitting in urgent care only to be sent over to Horton Hospital. This was the first time I found myself a little scared and wondering what might be wrong. I had this horrible pain in my lower abdomen. They were convinced they had ruled out appendicitis but they weren't sure what it was, their thought was a ruptured ovarian cysts. Which after 6 hours of fun, entertainment, and joy was what they told me it was however they weren't able to see it on the cat scan.

I will be following up this week my my own doctor, and who knows who else. My favorite things from the whole evening alright one of them was when my doctor came in said "your cat scan was clear, but we found a cysts on your hear." then he walked out not to return for another 20 minutes. Yeah it was fun.

So altogether it was a fun evening. It has allowed and forced me to take some time to rest and not do anything because of course I feel fine as long as I am not moving. :)

Lots of fun.... :)

Summer, House sitting

Can't believe that summer is finally here! It feels like it has been a really long winter/ spring. This week I have two things going on kinda simultaneously which is making it difficult to understand just how I am feeling. I am house sitting for some friends. Which is giving me this great reminder of how much fun it can be to live on your own again. I notice that I am eating better this week, however lets hold out on making a clear tie between house sitting and eating well until the week is over. :) However, on the sad side of things my mom leaves for Maine this week. What a pleasure it is to have this land and this property. I am so glad that my mom is able t o go to Maine for the summer relax and unwind. It is such a good thing to do.

Speaking of relaxing. I am really excited my first full day off is this coming Friday. It will be my first 24 hour day off in the last seven months. Please know that I knew this was going to be a season I would go through. I prepared, and am preparing to finish it well, and during the seven months I had time off just usually had to work either the morning or the evening of that day. I am so excited to have seen the Lord bring me through this busy time and to be standing looking at it almost finished. All in all a lot of new things going on.

As far as eating goes. Well I have had a few better weeks and lots of interview work. I

Birthday!

Well friends, I can't believe the birthday is almost here. It is a really exciting time of the year for me. I love celebrating birthdays, and I am trying really hard this year to not make it an excuse to eat poorly. (although it is hard) I do however plan on enjoying myself, and just being really aware of my portion size.

One of the major benchmarks from this whole goal was that I was going to give up Mac and cheese from January 1st on to my birthday. Well in two day.. that is over. I am so proud of myself, I have gone over six months with out eating one of the foods that I used to crave, and used as an emotional eating tool.

I can not wait to experience this food just as a food. I feel it has lost a lot of the power it had, now it will be a food that I like, but know I can live without.

Pretty exciting.

Even the Mirror looks different

Well it is finally beginning to be noticable. I have found that this week, I feel like I look different. I had once again to weight in and measure. This time though I wasn't afraid of it. I was really looking forward to it.

And with good cause, What a great month this has been. The scale numbers are still not dropping at the rate that I would like but it is still going down. You see this month I lost 2% body fat. (how awesome is that) I also gained 6lbs of muscle mass, and lost 1.5 pounds but that weight loss was from this week! So all in all it has been a pretty successful month, also there was another 1.5 inches lost bringing the total inches to 19.5.

Part of me wishes that these numbers were a little higher but I will take it we are now 6 months into this journey, and things are starting to pick up. I must say ... although I wish they were higher, I will take them and I am pretty proud of myself. Can't wait to see what the next six months have in store.

Time to Comment

Life is busy.... have you ever noticed how the years seem to go by faster and faster as we get older. I have, and I don't appreciate it. Life has seemed to fly by me. I can't believe that we are now nine days into this new month and I have been the the gym only 4 times! What! Life especially as things are wrapping down for the year seems to be really busy.

I have had some great revelations, I found myself emotionally eating a lot last week and I have been struggling to keep it in check this week and have been doing ok so far.

I wish there was more to say but I will have more soon, this friday is weigh in week. Here's to seeing things go in the right direction again. :)