Continuing to face discouragement

Three months and two weeks...that is 99 days...2,376 hours.....142,560 minutes That is how long I have been working towards life change. Today is a tough day. I am feeling note that I said feeling like I am failing at this task. I feel like I am still seeing no difference and there is still not real change in the numbers.

So why is it that in spite of feedback. I am still battling these thoughts and self destructiveness. So again it is time to change the perspective.... sure I have been at this for 2,376 hours but...I have been living a destructive life for ...236,520 hours! That is a lot of hours spent learning the habits and negative thoughts that I have.

But even acknowledging this doesn't seem to make the discouraging times easier. Maybe that is the problem I just want it to be easier, I want the easy way, I want this not be a struggle, I just wish for once it would just be easy.

But this week I learn that James 1:4 reminds me that Perseverance must complete its work so that that we might be mature, complete and lacking nothing. I guess this is one of those character building things. One that I am given the chance to persevere through to see it to the other end.