Trip to Ireland

March 15th ... the day I was supposed to fulfilling a dream of mine to fly to Ireland. It was supposed to be great! However who would have thought or known that a volcano in ICELAND that had been quiet for 218 years would choose to wait all those years just to ruin my trip.

Ok, I will give you, that comment might be just a little bit self focused, and while I don't really think that it is the gut reaction. I had felt not quite right about this trip the whole week leading up to it, which is rather unusual for me. I love to travel and really enjoy the time leading up to it. So I was blaming it on the fact that I knew very little about this trip and so I was sure that it was a control thing, but now I am not so convinced about that.

So what do we do with the disappointment that we have been given in life. It does seem that recently in my life there has been a lot of disappointment. I am starting to wonder how to handle it. I have been grieving and stressing , and now am just mostly sad. It seems like a triple whammy of shock to the soul.

I must confess... that yesterday and today was spent eating and sleeping, and generally feeling a bit blue. But I think it is time to leave this reaction behind. Not really sure how to move forward, I guess it is just accepting that sometimes life is bumpy and it then becomes a matter of giving grace to myself to feel how I feel, to experience the feelings and know that they are going to end. That this is just a season.

Death and new life, disappointment, failures, successes, sorrow, hardships are all a part of life, they all deserve to be felt, lived and experienced not just stuffed down or ignored. Why? Because it is these experiences that lead us to maturity and completion, it is these experiences that develop our character and give us validity in authority to speak into other people's lives.

What does this mean... I get up, go to the gym, eat good balanced meals and take the day as it comes...trusting in faith that things will be worked out.