Monday, January 23, 2012

Missing some dear friends

So lets just admit what is obvious.  I am a horrible friend communicator.   I have been so blessed over the years to have been given amazing people in my life.  I love them deeply, many of them have been with me for some really really major events in my life. Yet why do I find it so hard to stay in touch.  Even today when things such as facebook and email make life so much easier to share, I still struggle.

So to my dear friends that I haven't spoken to more than a few weeks.  I miss you. I miss sharing life with you, I am hoping that you will forgive me, and help me.  I try hard but I just get so involved in the moment. Please know that I think about you often, and pray for you when you come to mind.  I am sorry I am such a tough person to be friends with.

I saw Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close today.  It was a real tear jerker.  I don't know if the events of 9/11 will ever be less painful for me, or anyone else, I am sure time will remove some of the sting, but watching a family go through it and watching a little boy struggle to make sense of it was so moving.  It made me think of the people that I love that aren't near me.  In the movie the little boy wishes he could have spoken to his dad and it made me realize that i need to learn to be better about this communicating thing.  It is hard but it is so necessary you are in my life for a reason.

I know my family was really blessed during the events of 9/11, while my father was there, he witnessed so much he survived. I can't imagine what life would be like right now if I had lost my father that day. So it made me realize just how special people are to me.

I am gonna try... gonna try to continue to reach out because I really do miss you.

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