It is so hard to explain my struggles to someone who has never had the struggle with their weight that I have. I have finally found someone who has been able to verbalize the mental struggle so well. Karen Kingsbury in her newest book, "Take Two" This book series features two families that have returned from the mission field to tackle a new mission, film making. One of them is married to a women who struggles greatly with controlling her life through her eating. In the book this women's thoughts are on display, showing the inner thoughts of some of us who struggle so greatly with emotional eating, and lives that are controlled by food and thoughts of food.
I must say that each day while there are new challenges, the sense of freedom and forward motion that is developing is amazing. I can see myself making decision that are different from any other decisions I have ever made. It is encouraging, and as long as I can keep my mind focus on the source of my strength. As long as I can keep my heart mindful that I am loved, than I think this might just be my time.
Tonight I was talking with one of my best friends and she said to me "Sarah, you've got to help me I am craving sugar. As of tomorrow I want to stop." My reply was simple... "why tomorrow?" She responded in all truth , "because I want my one more night to enjoy it, one more night to eat and pig out." I laughed at her and warned her she was about to star in my blog tonight, and she agreed.
This is what we do.. we say we will wait till tomorrow and then for most of us that promised 'tomorrow' doesn't come. It reminds me of a story I read in Exodus. Moses had gone to Pharaoh to give Pharaoh the chance to be without the frogs God had brought upon the land. The story reads like this ...
I must say that each day while there are new challenges, the sense of freedom and forward motion that is developing is amazing. I can see myself making decision that are different from any other decisions I have ever made. It is encouraging, and as long as I can keep my mind focus on the source of my strength. As long as I can keep my heart mindful that I am loved, than I think this might just be my time.
Tonight I was talking with one of my best friends and she said to me "Sarah, you've got to help me I am craving sugar. As of tomorrow I want to stop." My reply was simple... "why tomorrow?" She responded in all truth , "because I want my one more night to enjoy it, one more night to eat and pig out." I laughed at her and warned her she was about to star in my blog tonight, and she agreed.
This is what we do.. we say we will wait till tomorrow and then for most of us that promised 'tomorrow' doesn't come. It reminds me of a story I read in Exodus. Moses had gone to Pharaoh to give Pharaoh the chance to be without the frogs God had brought upon the land. The story reads like this ...
"Pharaoh summoned Moses and Aaron and said, "Pray to the LORD to take the frogs away from me and my people, and I will let your people go to offer sacrifices to the LORD." Moses said to Pharaoh, "I leave to you the honor of setting the time for me to pray for you and your officials and your people that you and your houses may be rid of the frogs, except for those that remain in the Nile." "Tomorrow," Pharaoh said. Moses replied, "It will be as you say, so that you may know there is no one like the LORD our God."
You see here is the problem, God wants to be the God of today, of now.. yet we want to live in the beds we have made just one more night. Why? What are we afraid of losing? Can't we see that we have so much more to gain than we do to loose.
You see here is the problem, God wants to be the God of today, of now.. yet we want to live in the beds we have made just one more night. Why? What are we afraid of losing? Can't we see that we have so much more to gain than we do to loose.
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